Friday, February 12, 2010
Noun 1. poleax - an ax used to slaughter cattle; has a hammer opposite the blade
Last week I mentioned having received momentous news that left me stunned. All of you hoped for the best, but one or two of you added (quite rightly) that "momentous" doesn't always mean "good".
After twenty-six years, on February 1, I was laid off work. An entire job position within my company vanished in a puff of smoke.
In my case, I was more than stunned. I felt as though I'd been led into a slaughterhouse where someone tried to poleaxe me. The blow forced me to my knees. Then I became angry. I struggled to stand, left the slaughterhouse with dignity, finished my shift, and quietly went home.
Since then I've had time to discover my options and think them over. I've had time to ponder why it is that, when a person is caught up in something like this, one of the first things one does is to feel guilty, to feel less worthy. Silly, isn't it? Fortunately I didn't feel that way for very long.
Thanks in large part to the amazing and supportive man I married, although I still feel as if I've checked into a room in The Twilight Zone, I no longer feel stunned, guilty, shamed, or angry. Tomorrow will be my last day at work. My last act will be to take my severance package and leave. I'm looking forward to it.
Life has just turned into an adventure, and I'm looking forward to what's over that next hill.
My Book Rating Scale:
A+...Don't delay, get your hands on a copy of this book!
A...I loved it!
B...I really liked it.
C...I liked it, with a few reservations.
D...I finished it, but it's not my cup of tea.
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- Hi! I'm addicted to books (especially crime fiction), laughter and traveling off the beaten path. In my free time, when my eyes aren't glued to the printed page, one of them is usually pressed against the viewfinder of my camera. Let's see... books, laughter, travel, photography. Anything else? Oh yeah-- my dream house wouldn't have a kitchen!
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